Saturday, October 03, 2009

Crazy

A few weeks ago, I wrote on my facebook profile that God is crazy about us. Yesterday, I updated that thought; God is crazy.

I don't mean to be irreverent or disrespectful to God. I certainly have no desire to dodge lightening bolts (and I say that in complete jest). It's just that the more I learn, the less I know.

I keep coming back to the same question. Why would God love us? Really, look at yourself. Think of some of the exasperating things you do. (If you can't come up with anything, you are not being honest, and that in itself is cause enough to doubt God's devotion to you...)

Someone responded to my "God is crazy" statement with, "How about we are crazy about God?" I laughed. I would never dare to make such a statement; I am too clear on my own shortcomings.

I think I already mentioned this, but at a conference I attended last weekend, one of the presenters stated that we should not only accept ourselves as we are, warts and all, but celebrate it. She implied that God certainly does. That statement has come back to me again. I scratch my head and wonder out loud, how is that possible?

The implication seems to be that even if I never advance one more step in my faith; even if I don't change my character one bit from this point forward, God will not be the least bit surprised, phased or disappointed.

I cannot disappoint God. Is that really possible? Factual? Accurate?

I know that it is, and yet I am confused. How can I keep teaching spirituality classes when the more I explore the character of God, the less I understand about him. I know my first mistake is trying to hedge him in, trying to pinpoint him in the first place.

The apostle John concludes his gospel with the statement that if he were to write down everything that Jesus had done in his lifetime (lifetime -- 33 years), he supposed there would not be enough books in the world to contain it all. So why should I be surprised that trying to contain God the Father is even more impossible of a task?

God's love is off the chain. It is crazy. It is illogical. As I write this I am reminded of another statement that the same conference presenter made: an indicator of emotional health is that we have come to discover the irrational love of God.

There ... she said it. She thinks the same thing. God's love is irrational.

So we have before us two possible responses (OK, perhaps more than two, but I like to keep it simple):

1) Accept God's love, especially because it is so irrational, and allow that fact to somehow permeate our souls.

2) Reject God's love, insisting that we must become something first before he can love us; or that we must become something, less he stop loving us; or that sure, he loves us, but he doesn't really like us.

I think I've worn this subject out for now. I will conclude as I started -- God is crazy -- accepting this fact to the best of my finite human brain's ability.

Thank God that God is crazy.

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