When I first went to work in corporate America some 24 years ago, I heard the expression "Come to Jesus meeting." I actually thought it was some sort of religious thing. I didn't know that it meant a "serious," let's get one thing straight, heart-to-heart kind of meeting.
Well, I've conducted several Come to Jesus meetings this week. It's not my favorite thing to do, but in the name of being self defined and promoting better communication and understanding, I initiated them anyway.
The meetings went pretty well, but I was still feeling anxious about the entangled relationships that caused them in the first place.
I was doing what I often do in the mornings, rocking in my rocking chair, trying to stay focused enough to pray. I was telling the Lord about my anxiety and the exhaustion I was feeling over having to deal with this stuff. And I swear, clear as day, I heard the voice in my head saying, "Martha, Martha, you are worried and upset about many things..."
Yes, like Martha I was getting worried and upset about many things, and it was affecting my spiritual well-being. Instead of churning, I needed to be still, calm down, and give in to the peace that surpasses all understanding.
I came across an interesting paragraph in one of several books I am digesting now. This one's called "Living Life on Purpose." In a chapter about doubt, dilemma and disenchantment, the chapter's author Chris Kiesling states: "I often take my students on a mental exercise by asking them the following questions, 'If you were God -- which, if you have not yet discovered it, you are not -- but if you were god, how would you bring your followers to know that there is a peace that passes understanding unless you were brought to a place where you had no understanding? How would you know that the kingdom of God belongs to those who are poor in spirit unless God brought you to places where you are at the endo of yourself and your self-reliance? How would you come to know Him as the Light of the World or the Good Shepherd who pursues the lost sheep unless you were allowed to encounter darkness and lostness? How would you learn that He is faithful and trustworthy unless He throws you into situations where you have to rely on something other than your natural giftedness or wits?'"
Many things have the capability to throw me off course when I place them squarely on top of my altar and, given the amount of time and energy I devote to them, bow down and worship them.
God knows what is making me worried and upset. He isn't usually going to sprinkle magic fairy dust over those situations or relationships. Instead, he is going to remind me to change my focus; trust; regroup; refuel.
Psst, hey Tammy, you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed ...
Now that's a Come to Jesus meeting.